Darkness · Stirs

So I've met this really awesome girl. Her name is Brandi. And I like her. :)

Your Inner Color is Blue

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Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satisfied. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.



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Your Love is Blue
When you love someone, you give your heart entirely to them. You believe love is an unconditional, unselfish act.
You don't love half-way. You are "all in" whenever you are in love, and you don't hold back.

You find it easy to fall in love. You accept people as they are, and you even can love someone's flaws.
Because you are so loving and caring, you are incredibly easy to love in return. Your heart is open and ready to be filled.

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You Are A Blue Girl
Relationships and feelings are the most important things to you.
You are empathetic and accepting - and good at avoiding conflict.
If someone close to you is in pain, it makes you hurt as well.
You try to heal the ones you love with your kind and open heart.

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Apparantly I'm pretty blue...now let's add a little color. :)




You Are a Yellow Crayon
Your world is colored with happy, warm, fun colors.
You have a thoughtful and wise way about you. Some people might even consider you a genius.
Charming and eloquent, you are able to get people to do things your way.
While you seem spontaneous and free wheeling, you are calculating to the extreme.

Your color wheel opposite is purple. You both are charismatic leaders, but purple people act like you have no depth.

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You live your live with enthusiasm. You enjoy what you have, and you are determined to live a happy life.
You judge all your interactions through the lens of curiosity. You are genuinely interested in other people and tend not to be judgmental.

You face challenges with a playful attitude. You are determined to succeed, and a part of you enjoys any challenge.
You see love as the utmost expression of creativity. For you, love is about building a unique and interesting life together.

At your worst, you are irritable and burned out. Sometimes you burn too brightly.
You are happiest when you are given free reign to explore, create, and play.


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And were back to blue....



You Are Having a Blue Day
Today is the kind of day that challenges you to the core. You're going to have to stay cool.
You have the intelligence, skills, and drive to rise to the occasion. Your mind is sharp.

While things may be a bit chaotic, you are still taking the time to reflect and be calm.
Today you are extra attractive and interesting to people. You are giving off a detached vibe, which is very intriguing.


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Your Psyche is Blue
You are deeply emotional and very connected to everything (and everyone) around you.
By simply understanding other people, you are able to help them heal and let go.
While you are a very deep and thoughtful person, you do have a very silly, superficial side.

When you are too blue: the weight of the world's problems hangs over you

When you don't have enough blue: you lack perspective and understanding

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Your Blog Should Be Purple
You're an expressive, offbeat blogger who tends to write about anything and everything.
You tend to set blogging trends, and you're the most likely to write your own meme or survey.
You are a bit distant though. Your blog is all about you - not what anyone else has to say.


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And an end note...

You Color Your Life With Subtle Coolness
You are a full of grace and peace. You don't let yourself get worked up.
You tend to be a bit reserved. You only speak when you really have something to say.

You aspire to a lot in life, and you're quietly working on your plan to take over the world.
You are elegant and a bit of a snob. You can't help it... you like expensive things!

It would honestly be to Anna, she really broke my heart when she broke up with me. Especially with her reasons. I understand some, but not the others. I just wish there were things that she never would've said, because what she said to me when she broke up with me contradicted A LOT of what she said. And who the fuck breaks up with someone over Myspace!?

I wouldn't really say much to her, just that she hurt me a lot, but I forgive her. I love her so much and I probably always will. But I got over it, I'm not letting the pain get to me, I need to move one with my life.

I hope one day we can actually just be friends again.

So. I'm gay, wooo for being a lesbian! lol Idk why i started this entry like that lol. I'm having major mood swings again. And I'm feeling wicked lonely, I'm surrounded by people and I feel so alone...it sucks. I'll start writing in this again. I miss it. I bought a journal that I've been writing in which is good. Sometimes I get so frustrated with life and I need to write. I'm getting my car inspection tomorrow and it's not gonna pass. So there goes my car. And I need to get a new license cause I lost my wallet and it was in there. Blah.

I'm listening to sappy music. It's wonderful.

I wonder when my last update was...

sleeping. ^_^

Annoying
Beautiful <--- gotta think positive some how (or Bibliophile)
Crazy
Dreamer
Excellent
Fat
Gross
Hyper
Intelligent
Joker
Kevin Jonas Lover
Lonely
Mischievous
Naughty
Open
Problematic
Queer
Romantic at heart
Silly
Tempermental
Under-appreciated and estimated
Virgin
Wonderful
X-chromosones
Yeller
Zealous

I got to school and spread my germys. ^_^

If I'm super sick like I can't move than I'll stay home, but I usually go to schoool. ^_^

Holy shit, there's actually a month for this? Wow. I have ADHD, and I was diagnosed with it when I was 7 I think. It's been rough to grow up with it. I've been on several different kinds of medication, and I hated them all. I felt like a shell and that I had no emotion. Not fun at all. And I know my mom had it rough to when I was a kid, and even now.

I was always hyperactive and crazy, running around, playing with things, swinging on stuff I shouldn't, being a kid, but 10 times worse. And I'm still like that now.

When I was about 12, my friends parents didnt want me to spend the night because I was so hyper.

But that's the past.

I'm not really in the mood to write right now.

But I met this great guy DJ. :)

So I had something that I wanted to talk about this morning while I was driving to work...but now I can't remember now....shit....oh well...I remember one other thing I want to talk about.

Have you ever just felt the urge to start singing?

I'm not talking about you know the words so let's jsut sing along.

I'm talking about having a big bubble in your chest that pushes up into your throat and you just start singing! 

I had that last night while listening to the Jonas Brothers. 

I just felt the need to SING. So I did, then felt weird, cause I was alone and I sang really loud and off-key...

:D

 OMG, I wish I was off the clock now. I want to lick, slit my wrists or something. Seriously. Like, I'm not even kidding, I wish I had a knife.

That is not how I spend my days off the clock though.

If I'm off the clock, I'm a computer whore, I will be on my computer, near my computer or my computer will be on while I'm doing something else. I will be on Myspace, Facebook, Myyearbook, LiveJournal, Gaia, Fanfiction.net most definatly, and maybe a few other sites.

I like to relax with my computer.

If it just so happens I'm not around my computer on a day off, then I'll read a book.

I love to read.




Currently Reading - Private Demon
Currently Wearing - Blue Tank Top, Jeans, Heels, Sweatshirt.